It's just so damned weird. Am I really feeling tired of school already? Looking back at the past one year plus of my life, all that I have gained amounts to near naught. Poor extra activities record, poor results, poor way of making friends everyday. It really makes me wonder what my true purpose is now. Sure, I may be looking to get a scholarship, but with a damned E grade for Chinese and an even more damned C grade for Project Work, (wow I really gotta thank the school for fucking my PW grades up for all that I have done.) and all that I have participated are some seminars, a couple of competitions and just one A*Star research attachment. One year and I have done so little? Damn I must be pathetic. Better buck up right now or you'll just fucking die and get no scholarships.

But then again, I lack the motivation to get things going. Everything seems to be a bore right now, wonder what I should do to get that motivation back, no matter what.

"The monkey tries so hard to reach the moon." I must get back up and do something right for once, get back up to who I really am, get top 10%, maybe top 5% in the college. Though the only thing I fear now is the freaking lack of motivation. Something better push me on or I'm dead for the rest of my life.

Labels: Life

|| posted by Kuan Hui