It's over, finally over. Everything that I was supposed to work for the past two years of my life. Strangely I don't feel any sense of euphoria. Maybe it hasn't sunk in yet, maybe I'll never feel like that. But what I'm feeling now after thinking back the past two years is that, somehow I feel a sense of loss. I won't be seeing those people I normally see anymore in school. The end of JC life pretty much marks the start of how people go their separate ways. I looked back and realised how I won't ever be seeing some people again, maybe for the worse, or for the better. I look at the subjects that I've taken. Yes, I enjoyed them for the most part of it. Leaving them now suddenly brings about a sense of loss. That's awfully strange, seeing as how I hate doing my tutorials and sleep in lectures and classes. Perhaps those that treasure what they learn are probably those who don't really pick up and mug a textbook just for the sake of doing it.

Ah, anyway I'm still wearing my uniform. It's probably gonna be the last time I'll be wearing a school uniform anyway. Strange how school life just suddenly ends and then you're missing it already. I didn't really have that feeling back after the 'O' Levels, but now the feeling's so poignant. One big chapter (or theme) in my life has suddenly closed. It's like you step out of a dark place into a totally new world, with no way of going back. I guess you just have to press on and discover this new world ahead of you.

Oh well, it feels true indeed. NS suddenly seems that much nearer to you, when yesterday it was something far away, like a distant, faded dream. I suppose the past is gone now (well, duh right?) and it's time to chase new goals.

A new chapter in life starts now...

Labels: Musings

|| posted by Kuan Hui