Thursday, May 29, 2014
Over the past week I have debated about Creationism and Science, discussed about starting a business and how tough it is to actually get one going, met a bunch of (former) online friends, met and talked to my aunt and cousins and their children, met with my JC classmates and talked about grad trips and work, talked and discussed with friends about the Bible, talked about my problems, worries and dreams, and well, time seems to zip past so quickly, it's been about four days but looking back it seems like I have already met about 4 to 5 groups of people in my life.
And it all comes back to the diversity of life, and how different each and everyone of us is. It is amazing how different our lives can get, and the toughest of them all is getting outside your comfort zone to try new things. Perhaps we are all creatures who love to settle into an equilibrium, a local maxima of sorts, and getting out of that comfort zone to an even better maxima in life is going to be tough because getting off a local maxima means plunging yourself into the depths, not knowing where you would end up.
How do you then proceed? Looking back at the past few days of meetings and gatherings, it has become clear that I am starting to get really stressed up over finding a job, and a good one at that. I still want that recognition from that special someone, but at the same time it is probably wishful thinking and wrong to proceed by thinking this way. It has also become clear that I am nowhere sure of what job I love, what a dilemma; no real passion for anything in particular!
My ambitions and interests are so intertwined with my feelings as a human individual wholly. Sometimes it is hard to separate my passions from my love interest, from my ambitions, and my desires. Such a complex and complicated web of confusion my life weaves. And I scarcely doubt I'm the only individual feeling this way (at 25). Maybe that's why we're lost without God. That's why Proverbs 3:5-6 is so important to me. And yet I still need to nurture my connection with God daily. I am so prone to falling away from Him, even on a daily basis. Life ain't easy.
Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths (Proverbs 3:5-6) || posted by Kuan Hui
And it all comes back to the diversity of life, and how different each and everyone of us is. It is amazing how different our lives can get, and the toughest of them all is getting outside your comfort zone to try new things. Perhaps we are all creatures who love to settle into an equilibrium, a local maxima of sorts, and getting out of that comfort zone to an even better maxima in life is going to be tough because getting off a local maxima means plunging yourself into the depths, not knowing where you would end up.
How do you then proceed? Looking back at the past few days of meetings and gatherings, it has become clear that I am starting to get really stressed up over finding a job, and a good one at that. I still want that recognition from that special someone, but at the same time it is probably wishful thinking and wrong to proceed by thinking this way. It has also become clear that I am nowhere sure of what job I love, what a dilemma; no real passion for anything in particular!
My ambitions and interests are so intertwined with my feelings as a human individual wholly. Sometimes it is hard to separate my passions from my love interest, from my ambitions, and my desires. Such a complex and complicated web of confusion my life weaves. And I scarcely doubt I'm the only individual feeling this way (at 25). Maybe that's why we're lost without God. That's why Proverbs 3:5-6 is so important to me. And yet I still need to nurture my connection with God daily. I am so prone to falling away from Him, even on a daily basis. Life ain't easy.
Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths (Proverbs 3:5-6) || posted by Kuan Hui
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