Monday, June 16, 2014
It's 2.30 am now and I have to wake up before 7 tomorrow, but I feel like I must write this down.
It's been a fulfilling week of church camp, in which there was a good time of fellowship and of revelations revealed to me. Nonetheless, I shall write about that at another time since there would be too much to write in this post.
My worries still surround me every day of my life. Sometimes I wish I could go back ten years, to the times where the biggest worry was really just about being able to hand in homework or trying to improve my reputation with my classmates. But of course, to us, time is linear and only goes forward. So I'll just write out my daily worries.
I worry about losing my family and friends.
I worry that Salvation will not come over my family and friends.
I worry that I am sinning every day without fail.
I worry I won't get a good job.
I worry I won't get recognition from her.
I worry that she will get married to someone else other than me.
I worry that I won't be successful (in terms of recognition in the future).
I worry that my close friends (including her) will stray away from God, mostly because many teachings today are diluted and aren't based on the inerrant and infallible Word of God, but sometimes appeal to feelings which can be manipulated easily.
I worry about my health problems that are starting to take longer to heal, or appear more frequently.
These problems are not easily solved, but most are earthly and shouldn't even be considered. But it is still a worry. I commit these to the Lord almost daily, and yet I struggle a daily struggle. Perhaps sometimes all we need is more faith, and a better perspective of the order of things in this world. God first, everything else later, and the problems will turn into no problems eventually.
I did get a few new perspectives this church camp, and I'll be sharing them another time. But the fact is this still: we are helpless people who struggle every day, these worries won't go away. But the Lord will sustain me through everything. All I need is to keep on praying and believing, and being patient in my day to day struggles. || posted by Kuan Hui
It's been a fulfilling week of church camp, in which there was a good time of fellowship and of revelations revealed to me. Nonetheless, I shall write about that at another time since there would be too much to write in this post.
My worries still surround me every day of my life. Sometimes I wish I could go back ten years, to the times where the biggest worry was really just about being able to hand in homework or trying to improve my reputation with my classmates. But of course, to us, time is linear and only goes forward. So I'll just write out my daily worries.
I worry about losing my family and friends.
I worry that Salvation will not come over my family and friends.
I worry that I am sinning every day without fail.
I worry I won't get a good job.
I worry I won't get recognition from her.
I worry that she will get married to someone else other than me.
I worry that I won't be successful (in terms of recognition in the future).
I worry that my close friends (including her) will stray away from God, mostly because many teachings today are diluted and aren't based on the inerrant and infallible Word of God, but sometimes appeal to feelings which can be manipulated easily.
I worry about my health problems that are starting to take longer to heal, or appear more frequently.
These problems are not easily solved, but most are earthly and shouldn't even be considered. But it is still a worry. I commit these to the Lord almost daily, and yet I struggle a daily struggle. Perhaps sometimes all we need is more faith, and a better perspective of the order of things in this world. God first, everything else later, and the problems will turn into no problems eventually.
I did get a few new perspectives this church camp, and I'll be sharing them another time. But the fact is this still: we are helpless people who struggle every day, these worries won't go away. But the Lord will sustain me through everything. All I need is to keep on praying and believing, and being patient in my day to day struggles. || posted by Kuan Hui
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