When one doesn't get the thing he or she truly desires from deep within the heart, there's just envy. One starts to wonder why other people can be blessed and have the things they want.

I'm staring at a bottle of olive oil, oregano, some vanilla beans, chocolates that was given by her to me from her Europe vacation, along with a t-shirt and a postcard. My heart pines for her. My heart is angry and adamant that I am not blessed.

Blessedness, 'God in the Garden (of Eden) with Man'. By right only God gives true blessedness. Yet I am unsettled, every time I think upon her.

Man, life isn't that easy. || posted by Kuan Hui