Took a little trip down memory lane. I clicked on my old class blog, last updated in 2010. Started clicking those familiar links to blogs of my classmates too. Some of them no longer existing, some of them locked, and a select few still available to be viewed, albeit most updates ended in 2010.

Nostalgia can really be a powerful emotion at times. It is unique, distinctly different from happiness or sadness, yet at the same time falling in between both of those emotions, and it probably deepens in intensity as the years go by. Back in secondary school, things were much simpler. There was less nostalgia to contend with, and more things to explore. Ten years on, many experiences and sights have become all too common, and what remains fresh has dwindled down. Perhaps that is why our senses of nostalgia become more poignant now.

It is deep into the morning. Indeed, it is a time where reflections and recollections peak in their strength. It is a time where the sense of loneliness waxes. It is a time where realisations and epiphanies manifest.

I do feel alone now. And I am compelled by my tendency to want to revisit my past, to go back to a time where joyfulness, whether it is during simple secondary school days, or during romantic bliss between two. The future, as it stands, seems unknown, daunting, unwelcoming, less joyful than the past.

This is the time where I should look to Jesus, who will be the unfailing strength in this future, and the reassurance that things will be just fine, as long as I trust in Him. He will illuminate the way, sometimes with a candle barely piercing through the veil of darkness, sometimes with a floodlight that shines upon the eternal safe haven. It is good to trust in Him, and have Him hold my hand and lead me in baby steps onwards. || posted by Kuan Hui