A chat with A allowed me the opportunity to think about my personal value I have on myself. As I have previously shared, the feeling of inferiority and inadequacy have been rather strong lately due to meeting people in my pre-incubator course. Naturally and certainly, I cannot compare to them, for they, despite their achievements and accolades, have a different focus from me. And this comes as an insight which disappoints me, because at the heart of my feelings of inferiority, I am comparing myself and my human qualities to them. I have neglected to compare a large part of my life which they have no presence in: my walk with God.

I am comforted by the realisation that I have focused and built up my efforts in the church through the works that I have done. And looking back, although it has been only several months of work, I have done a significant amount which I should be proud of because these are works done for Jesus. This is what I have and what I will develop further as the days go by, and thus, why compare so much to people of the world?

This is not an excuse to slack off and not do my best by putting my best foot forward in the pre-incubator course, but an encouragement that I have my own value in my being which I have put effort in, and blessedly of the things of heaven, and therefore I can stand tall beside the people around me and be proud of the things I do. It is also a stern warning to me that I have neglected the presence of God in my pre-incubator course and I should bring it back in order to shine forth God's glory through my conduct. || posted by Kuan Hui