I just spent a whole day on Oriana searching for companies which I can apply to. I listed about 20 companies down which I could reply to. The search engine wasn't that great, it was pretty hard to sieve out selected industries and job functions to my liking, so it wasn't a very productive exercise. Nonetheless I still made some progress, so that is still decent. Towards the evening though, I started to feel extremely restless and sick of doing that work. I would attribute it to sitting in front of the computer all day and doing a relatively boring task, but I think the lack of human interaction also played quite a significant part in making me feel restless and unhappy. This goes full circle back to having a job. Now that most of the things of the year have come to a close, especially the PACT Pre-Incubator, I am left with nothing to look forward to, and nothing that I can identify strongly with to fight for. It's akin to a state of limbo where I am waiting for something to happen, and that is why my cravings for a job have come back even more strongly. To put it into perspective, it's been about 7 months since graduation, and although there is progress in my personal development alongside some business knowledge, I am still stuck at the starting line of my career journey, watching others sprint off to the distance. The further they run, the more unnerving it gets, because I still have to wait, even though I am begging to be allowed to start the race. January is looming near, and that is a barrier I really hate to cross unemployed. So there we go, frustrations and restlessness. All from the lack of progress I am currently in right now. Yet I have to wait.

In other news, my neck and upper back are much better now after physio. Yes there is still some pain and tightness when I crane my neck to either extremes, but for the most part my range of movement for my neck is almost completely back, and I have only gotten a neck strain once in the past few weeks (I used to get it once every few days). So thank God for it. It has been about a year already and I'm happy to feel this freedom returning to me again. || posted by Kuan Hui