Ravi Zacharias' sermons have been my companion for the greater part of the week. I was in a trough in term of my spiritual walk this week, and bad habits have been slowly seeping back into my life. Listening to some of the sermons have nearly brought me to tears over my wonderful and aweful God. I now have a renewed vigour to set my life right in Him and walk in His ways, and it hasn't been easy trying once again to walk closely with Him. But nonetheless, I am back to praying more and relying more on Him, realising how helpless I am against the greater forces and powers that turn this world, and I hope I continue this path of praying and not stumbling.

Today I spoke to Nathan and told him about my current predicament. My interview on Thursday is placed right in the middle of an important meeting, and knowing how tight my schedule will be over the next few days, it will be wrong if I took leave now or lied about why I need some time off (especially if I have already taken leave last Friday). Nathan prayed a very encouraging prayer, and shared his troubles with me as well. The amount of comfort God brings even in times like this is amazing. Truly He will never test us with more than we can handle, and He will bring comfort when we need it.

Walking away from my office in the middle of the quiet night, I thought of the majesty of God, how He created and ordained every single thing that has come into existence; the flickering lights of the nearby building, the softly-glowing orange lamp posts, the trees, the unkempt grass, the tarmac of the road, the crickets, and even the burning ball of gas that are the stars hanging upon nothing in the sky, unfathomable light-years away from me. In the vastness and the myriad complexity of the things I perceive, how insignificant I am in the grand scheme of God, yet how significant and important I am to Him, that He would love me and die for me, and listen to me and care for me. What more about this interview predicament I am in? Has He not made the situation so? Perhaps to test me, or to show me a better way? How effortless and easy it is for Him to change the whole situation around.

So I pray, taking my petition and my desire to Him, telling Him my worries, and that I really desire this position based on what I know and based on my logical decision-making mental faculties. Telling Him I really dislike and do not want the result to be unfavourable. Yet, I know I have to submit to Him and trust in Him, to put all my faith in Him, having poured out all my thoughts and emotions to Him. It is a struggle, but it is a good one, as long as I continue to believe.

"And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose." (Romans 8:28)

If God is for me, then who can really be against me? Isn't it so amazing and comforting to know that in all of reality and all of consciousness, there is a infinite, loving God who is good? That we will always win, and win in a good way. Such is the order of all creation: it is good. || posted by Kuan Hui