Wednesday, June 24, 2015
Kuan Hui: God, I really want to leave this job, I am so tired of facing a future which I have no interest in and where the environment is hostile to me.
God: I know.
Kuan Hui: I feel like I cannot go back to the oil and gas industry if I carry on further. Why have I been kept from another job three times after the final interview?
God: It is to train you, my son. You will be ruling beside me in the new world to come, how can I let you bear such a responsibility without you going through the refiner's fire to clear away the dross?
Kuan Hui: But Lord, I am tired, I have been facing emotional stresses for a while already, and when one ends, another takes its place. I don't need I can go much further without rest.
God: Why won't you trust me? Did you not trust your PE teacher when he said you could run a further 10 minutes? You trusted him because he had experience in building up your stamina, and that he will ensure you will not die from it. Why will you not trust your heavenly Father, who knows you even better than your PE teacher, who has prescribed this training regimen to build you in the best way possible?
Kuan Hui: But how do I submit to your will and be happy in my infirmities?
God: Have I not spoken to you clearly enough? Has not the Matthew 6:12 told you that by my grace you will be strong enough to forgive? Have I not administered to you kind and loving words through Amanda, who speaks to you gently with reason and encouragement? Have I not showed to you through Nathan that life isn't easy wherever you go, and that happiness is submission to my sovereign will? Have you not seen how Sister Lilian, who at 73 having lost her husband, having walking problems, having children who quarrel with her and put down her faith, can look you straight in the eye and from the depths of her very being say, "I have everything."? Has Pastor not told you that I deal with each and every being individually and meticulously, that in all situations you and they are in, my hand is in it, working for the betterment of your spirit? So then, I know your pains and sufferings, and I know you wish to be relieved of them, but submit to me and learn to forgive and love others through me.
Kuan Hui: Lord, thank you for granting to me all these experiences and words of kindness. Thank you for framing my perspective through this conversation that played in my mind. Lord, I still fear the hardships that come, but give me strength to submit and obey You with a cheerful heart, to forgive and let go of any hostility driven at me, to remain humble and contrite, and to face reality with courage. Thank you for showing me that even though I may be tired, I am still given rest through waiting and perfect submission.
"But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint." (Isaiah 40:31) || posted by Kuan Hui
God: I know.
Kuan Hui: I feel like I cannot go back to the oil and gas industry if I carry on further. Why have I been kept from another job three times after the final interview?
God: It is to train you, my son. You will be ruling beside me in the new world to come, how can I let you bear such a responsibility without you going through the refiner's fire to clear away the dross?
Kuan Hui: But Lord, I am tired, I have been facing emotional stresses for a while already, and when one ends, another takes its place. I don't need I can go much further without rest.
God: Why won't you trust me? Did you not trust your PE teacher when he said you could run a further 10 minutes? You trusted him because he had experience in building up your stamina, and that he will ensure you will not die from it. Why will you not trust your heavenly Father, who knows you even better than your PE teacher, who has prescribed this training regimen to build you in the best way possible?
Kuan Hui: But how do I submit to your will and be happy in my infirmities?
God: Have I not spoken to you clearly enough? Has not the Matthew 6:12 told you that by my grace you will be strong enough to forgive? Have I not administered to you kind and loving words through Amanda, who speaks to you gently with reason and encouragement? Have I not showed to you through Nathan that life isn't easy wherever you go, and that happiness is submission to my sovereign will? Have you not seen how Sister Lilian, who at 73 having lost her husband, having walking problems, having children who quarrel with her and put down her faith, can look you straight in the eye and from the depths of her very being say, "I have everything."? Has Pastor not told you that I deal with each and every being individually and meticulously, that in all situations you and they are in, my hand is in it, working for the betterment of your spirit? So then, I know your pains and sufferings, and I know you wish to be relieved of them, but submit to me and learn to forgive and love others through me.
Kuan Hui: Lord, thank you for granting to me all these experiences and words of kindness. Thank you for framing my perspective through this conversation that played in my mind. Lord, I still fear the hardships that come, but give me strength to submit and obey You with a cheerful heart, to forgive and let go of any hostility driven at me, to remain humble and contrite, and to face reality with courage. Thank you for showing me that even though I may be tired, I am still given rest through waiting and perfect submission.
"But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint." (Isaiah 40:31) || posted by Kuan Hui
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