The increasing amount of mess in my bedroom is a reflection of my fatigue level. Church camp is fast approaching and the number of things that must be done before camp starts is ever increasing. In the light of the things to be done, attending YEE does not seem like a very enticing prospect now.

I know serving the Lord entails that sacrifices have to be made. But knowing that does not alleviate the increasing inertia that part of me has, along with a reluctance to do more. And yet there is always one side of me wanting to do more, never feeling that I am ever doing enough, especially towards God. In a way it is a cheerful giving spirit which is undoubtedly given by God, but I must also be aware of an unhealthy desire that what I am doing is not enough.

Balance is key. Managing my emotions is crucial. || posted by Kuan Hui