Yesterday was Accenture Singapore's 40th Anniversary Gala Dinner. The whole event was pretty overboard posh, given that it was held in Resorts World Sentosa. After the event, the team headed to Zouk for drinks. To be honest, that was the first time I've ever been to Zouk, and my second time in a club.

I had one too many drinks.

The Holy Spirit is now calling me out on it and I feel extremely guilty for losing my sense of soberness. Granted I didn't do anything crazy; just sitting by the side and watching the rest go crazy. But this was perhaps the most tipsy I have ever been and the loss of control that I had over my mental faculties was something I felt that was very demeaning as a self-professed Christian. I thank God that He has brought me home safely, given how tipsy I was. I thank God also for revealing to me the debauchery of the world first-hand, and revealing to me by experience why a truly God-loving Christian should stay away from such places. I am at least equipped with the understanding why drunkenness should be avoided: it opens a free passage for sin to invade, like in the examples of Noah and Lot.

There is perhaps no consolation that I have sinned against God last night, it is a painful experience to be sinning against the Creator, as the heart plunges into turmoil. Paul writes in Romans 14:21-23:

It is good neither to eat flesh, nor to drink wine, nor any thing whereby thy brother stumbleth, or is offended, or is made weak. Hast thou faith? have it to thyself before God. Happy is he that condemneth not himself in that thing which he alloweth. And he that doubteth is damned if he eat, because he eateth not of faith: for whatsoever is not of faith is sin.

I have knowingly decided to open myself to sin, which is clearly not of faith. That in itself becomes sin. Hence the regret that is gnawing inside me right now. I know God is a loving God and I will be forgiven if I confess sincerely from my heart to change, and I say to myself, never again, thank God. || posted by Kuan Hui