Admittedly, I have not told everyone I'm leaving yet. One of the biggest reasons to it is that I really hate the response they would give me. I do not want to let the others feel sad because I am leaving, and the fact that I must break the news soon makes it a struggle within me. Maybe that's why I'm actually feeling quite stressed about leaving, maybe that's why I couldn't sleep last Sunday.

Strange how I would have such a fear and dislike in inducing negative emotions. I never knew this trait would have manifested in me so strongly. Farewells are unpleasant, and my tearing up as I went around saying bye on my last day of NS was one other example. Amidst the fleeting thoughts that knock on my memory's pathway, flickering into consciousness and fading away as quickly as it comes, I am reminded of the day my grandmother passed away, I am also reminded of the last days in the different schools I've attended, I recall today's news on the Bangkok blasts. If life and the bonds of relationships are this ephemeral, why have I not set my sights higher on the permanency of God's promises?

O Lord, wilt Thou give me more strength to reach out to others outside Thy Kingdom? that they may one day taste eternity, and no longer have to experience painful separations. || posted by Kuan Hui