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Monday, September 28, 2015

Have you ever been denied something you want badly, all without understanding why it was denied? Today I shared with my pastor an opportunity which I currently have to attend the 4th EAS Youth Forum. Pastor highly discouraged me from attending, saying that this will not teach me anything and will be a waste of time and energy going, given that the exposure is worldly and any inputs will indirectly contribute to a one world government.

While I won't deny that there is at least some relation to the formation of a one world government or simply to hasten the end times, I find it hard to accept that this will net me no benefit but will instead draw me away from God due to its worldliness. I cannot understand how this is something detrimental to my walk with God.

To be honest I do know going for this will at least in some ways enhance my CV, which I do not doubt that is something which I want. I also want the experience of being in a forum, in a different environment where I can get to interact with people from other nationalities. As I was in the shower just now, I pondered on this, if my chief aim is to glorify God, what and how does this contribute? Truthfully speaking, it does little to nothing in contributing to His glory, but perhaps my time in Singapore should I choose not to go will not yield much at this current season, as far as I can see. In other words, there is no significant difference should I choose to go or not. Now the next question is whether this will affect me negatively. To be honest, I find it hard to see a connection here, the only exception is that since it is a regional forum, politics in some form will be involved and I will not be spared it. Truly, my desire is to go there, since I see benefits for me, and I am lacking an understanding of how this can be detrimental to me as my pastor says.

What shall I do Lord? I do want to obey You, but I'm not even certain of the clarity of the message that You have given me. I know I am to take up the cross daily, and I know this is a struggle to take up the cross, especially when carrying it means to give up things I desire to do. I remember Abraham and how You had instructed him to offer Isaac as a sacrifice. Abraham could not understand why, especially when he really desired to have a son, and when You had promised him that his descendants were to be like the stars in the sky. Yet he obeyed. O Lord, is this truly, in my own small way, Thy way of testing me? Help me O Lord to understand and obey.
|| posted by Kuan Hui


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