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Wednesday, December 9, 2015

Lust
His willful decision to give into temptation and the "natural order" of the world. A seared conscience and a wedge driven in between him and the Lord. A double life, a life of deceit.

Pride
His ego so great that he knows but understands not the honour that God has given to him, not by his own merit, but by God's grace. His thoughts of disgust and arrogance over certain individuals, either not as disposed to articulate and ruminate to his level of complexity, or a Pharisaical impression of others not saved by grace. A pride that will not back down to consider the emotions of others. A pride so self-centered that conversation becomes 'listen to me and my woes, even though I am such a good person', instead of 'I put me aside to listen to what an equal to me has to say'.

Covetous
His desire to attain the things of the world; money, prestige, recognition from others. A desire that shoves aside the longsuffering and patient nature of the fruit of the Spirit. A desire to please man instead of pleasing God. A desire to compromise on God to gain acceptance from man. At the end of the day, he stands with few friends, fewer close friends, and no best friend in this world to encourage him in his walk with God.

Lonely
His desire to have a community of like-minded peers and friends whom he can share his daily life, his daily experiences with God, and his fallings with. His desire to teach and be teached. His desire for love, a companion, a partner, a soulmate. One who will encourage him to do his best to glorify God in every aspect and moment of his life. One who will listen and encourage his downtimes and sensitivities. One whom he will take care of as the head of the family. One whom he will treat as the most important being besides God. One whom he will carry on his back till death do they part.

Lie
His false tongue in pleasing men, perhaps a close friend. Another seared conscience, this time unsure. Unsure whether the guilt of the lie comes from the sin, or from his unwillingness to reveal the truth. A haunting recollection of that moment when he decided to lie. A regretful heart.

What of pride? What of knowledge? What of any form of ego? What righteousness does he have? Are they not just as filthy rags (Isaiah 64:6)? His hardened heart only knows the knowledge of sinning further in more depravity. His hardened heart turns from God in good times, and comes back crying harder in tough times? What of it? Has he no shame? Why does he continue? He cries out. Unhappy. Uncertain. Unsure.

God help him.
|| posted by Kuan Hui


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