My heart is still torn and disappointed. "Why like this?" I ask. I know success and failure is ultimately determined by God, yet the two-year long pain intensifies instead of subsiding. Am I not living by faith enough? Am I not accepting and trusting that God desires the very best out of me, and in whatever painful circumstance that I am in, He has done it for my own good in the best way because He loves me? Do I not remember that God is my Jehovah-jireh, my all in all, my Supplier of every want that I have? Have I not realised that my circumstances are not bitter medicine? Have I not realised that He loves me and does not want me to go my way?

O Lord, my Redeemer, my all-encompassing Supplier of all my needs and wants, my Rock and my Refuge, help me in my pain and loneliness, I have no idea what I can do on my own, I am helpless alone. Come swiftly, see Thou to it. || posted by Kuan Hui